It’s just despair. I have no purpose really. I don’t belong anywhere, he said.
Over the years, I have had cases of depression that seemingly nothing could touch.
To get a better idea of what one such case was like, read the following words, details of which have been changed.
I just don’t have any motivation. No fuel. No energy.
I can fake it, but it’s just like an emptiness.
Describe it, I prompted.
I’m just not connected to anything. Just alone in space.
I’m like blank, a blank slate, no agenda, no nothing.
People deep in depression have a profound disconnection, as if something deep inside the person made the decision to withdraw. Another dramatic example of this was a person who spoke so slowly it took me hours to get the case. She slept way too much, and she couldn’t concentrate on what was going on.
I’m like numbed out, completely numb, she said.
I always get this feeling that I haven’t done enough.
I have remorse, guilt, a feeling of worthlessness.
I asked her to tell me more. She continued,
I don’t have much feeling anymore.
I don’t get super excited, I don’t get super sad, I get frustrated with myself.
I don’t feel any highs anymore.
I feel like I’m trying to grasp reality, trying to stay sane.
How to heal such disconnection? The accepted medical solution is anti-depressants, because the source of the problem is declared “a brain chemistry abnormality.” Too often, though, the results are not good enough. Moreover, the downside of antidepressants are underplayed and insufficiently talked about. The first is the sexual side effects, which can be devastating, particularly with young people. Another is the addictive nature of anti-depressants.
This is why, for me, the first choice in treating depression is always to reach in to the actual energetic source of the depression and heal it with a precisely chosen homeopathic remedy. On the surface, these two depressed patients sound similar. Nevertheless, listen to each of these patients and you find a deeper feeling, an “explanation,” so to speak, of why they are disconnected. The first man said,
I don’t trust many people.
Tell me about trust? I asked.
Sort of expecting something bad to happen, expecting people to be mean. Having to sort of hide, being sort of guarded. It’s like being a fugitive. It’s like you want to trust people but you can’t. If you trust people they can hurt you.
Compare this with the other case. Listen as she talks about her isolation.
It’s almost like you are in a bubble. You see what’s going on, but you are unable to participate in anything.
You’re invisible. Your substance is there but people look right past you.
It’s the worst feeling, not being on common ground with anybody.
It’s like reacting, in a certain way that other people think is inappropriate. You are laughing at something inappropriate, yet it’s not familiar. It’s not their norms. It’s completely foreign.
This is a different situation from the first case. In this case the disconnection is in the state itself. This person spoke as if she wasn’t part of this world. In the first case, the disconnection is a reaction to the feeling of distrust, like someone hiding from a dangerous enemy. It’s as if something in the thoughts whispers, “Retreat and hide or you will be hurt!”
After taking a precisely chosen homeopathic remedy that matched the energy of their respective feelings, both of them shifted toward connection and happiness. I gave the first case a remedy potentized from a spider source. The second case I gave a remedy potentized from a gas.
In follow-up, the first case told me,
I’m much happier. I feel much less isolated. I’m not as angry and am getting along with people better.
The second case put it differently.
I feel like I’m actually alive again, able to like communicate with a lot of people. Feels like I’m in tune with what is going on. I wake up in the morning, and I’m not just dragging around. My attention span is a lot better. I feel more involved in whatever I’m doing. It’s really refreshing.
When did it start? I asked.
Maybe a week after I took the remedy.
There is no better way to heal deep depression. Classical homeopathy offers hope to those who feel isolated and withdrawn.