What bothers me the most is feelings of dread and fear, low self esteem, worthlessness, she said.
The current economic uncertainty has aggravated many people, but particularly it has affected those with a deep inner uncertainty. This uncertainty is not easy to heal with conventional medicines. Anti-depressants can help, as can anti-anxiety drugs, but the numbing effect generally do not touch the deeper layers of uncertainty from which the anxious feelings spring.
To help in understanding this, I have selected a case that illustrates how uncertainty can lie within the inner emotional fabric of the patient, as if hard-wired in the cells. This particular patient, freed from this uncertainty, has gladly lent us a few of her words to help us shine light on the healing process. She told me,
I have very strong feelings of inadequacy–like “I can’t do this, can’t do this on my own … I have to do it all myself, and I’m not capable.”
This woman is highly intelligent and accomplished. Her feelings that she was incapable, needing someone to help her were feelings that had no basis in reality. Nevertheless, that didn’t stop her from waking up to them every morning.
I wake up in the morning and feel dread… It’s like when you are almost in a car accident. Adrenaline courses through you; there is this lurching in my stomach. Panic.
What else? I asked.
I feel depression, and I feel my brain can’t really focus. It’s fuzzy. I have a lack of concentration, forgetful. I feel like I go in circles–directionless–during periods of my day.
This “going in circles” is something she experiences in her body. It is not simply a mental-emotional issue, such as depression. She gets “dizzy” and loses her focus. This exacerbates her feelings of inadequacy and dread.
Further along into her interview she told me, I have chronic ear ringing… I feel if I could get rid of the ear ringing I could settle down more.
As you probably know, vertigo and dizziness stem from problems inside the ear. She told me that this ear ringing made her feel “agitated.” What is strongly suggested here is that she has inner ear problems that affect her anxiety.
For those of you who follow classical homeopathy, you know that, using the law like cures like, we seek to mirror the energetic pattern of the disease with a homeopathic remedy. There is a peculiar substance that matched this patient, and it has symptoms specific to inner ear problems. It is the worm lizard. Worm lizards are small, vulnerable animals that have evolved to have a highly-developed, unique middle ear for increased transmission of ground vibrations to the inner ear, which warns them against predators. Strangely, they also move in both directions effectively.
You may start to see how this mirrors our patient. The ear of the worm lizard is highly sensitive, and this translates into vertigo and dizziness for our patients. The ability to move in both directions at once translates at the emotional level into a feeling of “I don’t know which way to go. I’m lost.” Remember, our patient told us she feels “directionless,” as if “going in circles.”
It may not surprise you that her response to this remedy was deep. Listen to what she told me after she took it:
I wake up and I’m not experiencing anxiety or dread… [Before] I would wake up and not know what to do, and now I wake up and it’s like, ok, I start my day. I don’t feel so overwhelmed, It feels like life is manageable, and it’s manageable by me. I’m just not freaked out. I don’t feel like I’m looking outside myself for the answers to those questions. I feel so much more myself and happier with myself.
My ear ringing is reduced.
My work has turned rewarding rather than scary. Not so fearful about what will happen. I’m not trapped in all this fear about the future.
Those with fear and uncertainty can find deep, permanent help from classical homeopathy.